Thursday, April 10, 2014

What my True Statement of Purpose would be like

To,
The Consular,
High Commission,
Australian Embassy,
India.

Subject- Statement Of Purpose

Respected Sir/Madam,

I have been fortunate enough (or should I say unfortunate enough considering the circumstances) to be accepted by UTS, Australia for the course Masters in Engineering Management and I am now applying for a non-immigrant student visa for the Spring intake of 2014.

I want to make a difference in the field I work in. I want to make a name for myself that will not fade into oblivion. I'd probably have started my application with something like that if I had been the same person I was a couple of years ago. I did crave for fame and success above all once. I was proud of my accomplishment of graduating an Electrical and Electronics Engineer, major in Communication, without any fails; and I thrived of making a meaningful contribution to the telecommunication sector in my country. My bucket-list included making a name for myself to the point of one day being one of 50 ladies included each year as Naree women of the year in this magazine that awards women who have done some significant works in their respective fields. Looking back at that dream from where I am now has led me to realize how naive those dreams were and how I need to set more realistic and attainable goals.

I graduated about a year and half ago from Kathmandu University. Though the plans of it being a residential university were not carried out, in my year we did compulsorily have to stay in the hostel and so I did for four years. It was a domain on its own, secluded from the world outside. Located at Dhulikhel, it was far away from the pollution of the valley but not far enough to be completely cut off urbanization. Wonderful weather, walks in the nature and numerous sources of entertainment and good food within walking distance, along with my many friends. Those days were the days we dreamed big. We had no active responsibilities to speak for, money was not an issue as we were students and it was still okay to depend on our parents financially. Studies were our only concern and so we found a lot of time to imagine what life would be like after graduation, who would be the first one to land a job and where, how much would the jobs pay and where would be go for a post-graduate degree when the time came.

I cannot speak for all my friends but the real world started for me when I came back home after my finals. Then came the immense pressure of finding a job. Contrary to what I believed, nobody was looking to offer any kind of job to a freshly graduated engineer. There were no vacancies, no HR would look at my CV without prior work experience and there was no end to the competition that ensured if and when there was a job opening anywhere. The massive crowed of people on the streets, the endless traffic jams, the unnecessary honking from each and every vehicle while waiting for the traffic to change, not to mention the dust that enveloped the entire roads due to road expansions made it even more difficult for me to adjust to this life after graduation.


 The main reason why I want to pursue a degree in a foreign country is because at this time, to be happy in my country, you wither need to be filthy rich or highly ignorant. A rich person in a poor country like mine will be able to live in full luxury having the added luxury of turning a blind eye to the things he does not want to see. And an ignorant person will not care enough about the things going on around. While looking at the flock of people waiting to cross a 8-lane street that does not have an over-head bridge, an ignorant person would see a crowd but I see chaos and I see short-sighted authorities. An ignorant person would not mind walking from the road in front the Constituent Assembly building because the footpath is off-limits to pedestrians for security reasons for an assembly meeting months away. Nor would he care about people spitting where they please, littering all along the road and burning plastic bags. They would probably feel sorry for that homeless person lying on the sidewalks who has lost one of his limbs and get mad when they see a dog defecating on the road. They would get angry when a car does not slow down let alone stop when they try crossing the road from a newly painted zebra-crossing or see vehicles parked in a no-parking zone or the footpath they were supposed to walk from. The fact that they have no electricity, no water, they need to pay extra to get these services they have already paid for may make them furious for a little while but they will adjust, because that is what ignorant people do, they adjust! The ignorant people will take part in cleaning this river every week without fail that flows through the town hoping one day this dead river will come back to life, without realizing that every day tons of more untreated waste is being dumped into it again. There is so much I wish to change but there is so little I can do. I was once the content creator of a troll page in my country, I used to create satirical posts regarding the many different kinds of social issues. But like a friend of mine said, that is the extent to the things I can do. There was a joke with a serious note I read somewhere, If you cannot change your country, change your country.

I will probably have to tell you how a Masters degree in Engineering Management will improve my job prospects further after returning back to my country but that would be a lie. The only thing that can help land a job here are how strong are your ties to people who can pull strings. And that is exactly how I landed my job. I was still happy, though the pay was lesser than what I had in mind about the kind of money engineers make. I told a friend of mine who works in the United States about my job and my pay and he said that the money I make in a month, he makes in a week. That did not deter me in the least but something else did. I still gasped at the price tag before buying something, I still stayed away from those pricy dress that I liked so much even when I had the money because they were expensive. And the struggles a girl has to face in a public environment are the same, be it for an engineer or for a call-girl!

One would think that after studying something that difficult, after giving up your sleep for a better grade, after being able to write an Er. in front of your name and after mastering techniques and theorems who never thought were possible to learn, you would get some kind of respect in the society. But since very other household has an unemployed engineer of some kind and you cannot shove your degree towards the hooligans who misbehave with you and ask them to spare you because you are an engineer. I do not know the physics behind eve-teasing and why people do it or if there are certain kind of girls they tease or they tease every girls, irrespective of who they are. All I know is that I hate being treated like an object and I want to be able to walk down the road without putting on my mask and my earphones. Well it may seem like the reason I wear a mask is to protect myself from the dust that has been engulfing the roads and the reason I walk with earphones is because I want to stay entertained. One of the reasons I put a mask while walking may seem pretty crazy but I feel if I get teased while wearing a mask, I am not fully teased, I may as well just be a ransom girl. Without it I feel more vulnerable, like it is me who just just got teased and not somebody random. And the headphones help me drown out the useless honking and stuffs people may have said with the intention of teasing me. I saw a guy walk around inappropriately touching girls while walking and I stayed back to see if that was an accident. I almost told a police man that guy was doing that to girls. they were both so close. I don't know what made me change my mind. Probably the fact that I know this has been going on here for ages and will stay the same. It is just of those many things that I cannot change and will have to get used to.

I am one of the outsourced employees in a large corporation and my job sounds perfect. The inappropriate workplace behavior I have to face tells a whole different story. My work-place is a home for 5 different organizations. I'd like to believe that if it was just one, I would not have to face this trouble. A professional workplace environment they call it.I wonder if women all over the world have to live with it, I'd like to hope not. 

I would rant on some more about how the public transportation system is so terrible in here but lately the media has been covering that. Of course I could ride my own scooter but then my mother would spend her time worrying if I am going to make it back alive. That is how worrisome mothers are and that is how risky the transport system is in here. I do not have the aptitude it takes to drive a car around these roads, slithering in between two vehicles parked on both sides of the road and I'd probably need double the time it actually takes if I was driving because I'd be so careful.

Now I am going to have to talk some about why I want to study this subject that I have chosen. I'd be lying if I said I am passionate towards it and all but I do want to study this Engineering Management. Of course there is no such degree in my country because we do not have institutions teaching industry-relevant courses, and since I had no interest in the field of engineering in the first place, this degree will provide me the escape I need without everyone raising an eye as to why would I deter from engineering. Needless to say, my parents like all parents wanted their first-born daughter to grow up to become a doctor or an engineer. I get the lure of a medical degree, you might even be making a difference and the pay is always good. What do I even say to my engineering degree!

They do have engineering management degrees in USA and Europe but I choose Australia. Since it would be stupid of me to say I am doing it because the boy I love is there, I will probably have to say because the weather there is similar to that in my country and how the environment is suitable for international students. I think the whole statement of purpose is useless anyways because the financial documents are what count. I wonder how many killer SOPs were in that count of 2000 visas that got rejected last season for not have financial documents included from the banks you believed in. That is the way it works in a poor country, dear sir, people can be easily bribed. And while most of the people in this country just want to make a better life for themselves, try and earn some money and in genuine cases just a degree, it is extremely difficult for them to show the huge amount of funds you need to show. So of course they are going to find a way to beat the system and make fake documents.

And I know my 8.5 in IELTS and 3.4 GPA will not make much of a difference to you, you will not grant me this visa to go study which I want to do, because I am a level 3 candidate, the kind that comes from an under-developed country and poses immigration threats. And because my parents keep their life saving in a co-operative that pays more interest and not in the banks you trust. So none of my academic or character evaluation nor my English proficiency or this Statement of Purpose is going to make any difference.

Sincerely,
The girl who wanted to follow her heart for the first time.


1 comment:

  1. Written beautifully ... !! Keep this good thing going on and on :D !! Thank u : )

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